Me
my name is melissa. i am 27 years old and i'm still not sure what i'm doing with my life.
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Monday, December 20, 2004
TEN random things about me
10. i like penguins
9. i love the color orange
8. i go to UCSD
7. i dont watch tv
6. i play ultimate frisbee
5. i like kimchee instant noodles
4. i have the same birthday as my sister
3. i have the prettiest car in the world
2. i love learning random languages
1. my name means honeybee in greek
NINE places i've visited
9. rome
8. paris
7. london
6. germany
5. switzerland
4. austria
3. china
2. japan
1. cancun
EIGHT things i want to do before i die
8. learn esperanto
7. learn arabic
6. get married
5. take the PCH all the way down
4. visit all 50 states
3. participate in a triathalon
2. BASE jumping. or skydiving at least.
1. do something useful for the world
SEVEN ways to win my heart
7. call me randomly throughout the day
6. open doors for everyone. not just me.
5. be nice to my sister
4. smell good
3. make me laugh
2. expand my horizons
1. be proud of me
SIX things i believe
6. God is real
5. what goes around comes around
4. live life in such a way that when you die, you have no regrets
3. if it is meant to be, it will happen
2. everything happens for a reason
1. everything always works out in the end
FIVE things i'm afraid of
5. failing my classes
4. not getting into grad school
3. not getting a good job
2. not fulfilling my potential
1. disappointing my mom
FOUR of my favorite items in my bedroom
4. my vaio
3. my cell phone
2. my life is good disc
1. stuffed animals
THREE things i do everyday
3. shower
2. eat
1. sleep
TWO things i am trying not to do right now
2. be cold
1. be bored
ONE person i want to see right now
1. eh. *sigh*
mel was bored at 7:39 PM.
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Thursday, December 16, 2004
oh man i cannot even begin to explain how excited i am!
i got an A- in econ (woot)! a C in latin (ugh) a B in mmw (ugh) but a C in math! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOO. cause i honestly was expecting to fail that class. and i didnt! i didnt! omg im so happy right now. i was kind of expecting a better grade in mmw but eh, wtv. and latin i was hoping for a better grade but not expecting it based on how badly i got owned on the final but WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO. man NEVER having three finals on the same day again. in those classes i got an A-, then a C, then a C. and i really think that part of it was because i was so tired by those three finals. HOLY CRAP I CANNOT BELIEVE I PASSED MATH. *sigh of relief*
maybe i'll stick with mgt science? its already in my schedule. and my schedule is so pretty too. decisions decisions.
and even with my 2.67 this quarter (yeah stfu all you people laughing at it) i still have over a 3.0 for my total GPA so i can still study abroad and... you know all that good stuff. so YAY. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. ok im calm.
WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
mel was bored at 9:52 AM.
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Friday, December 10, 2004
three months of bliss and it all comes crashing down like this.
gerald goes to san pedro the day before my finals so i can study. he sees friends, family, old memories. and the ex-girlfriend. he's supposed to be home by 8 or 9 and at 8:30 i call to see what sup. turns out he decided to stay overnight. and he had dinner witht he ex-girlfriend. but stupid me.. im not worried about her. i'd met her earlier and honestly, i thought i was more interesting. but im still depressed because he had promised to be there on wednesday to support me through my nine hours of finals. i cry. i cant study so i tell him im going to sleep and i'm waking up at three. he says he'll be home at three. i cry and i sleep. i wake up at three. he's not there. i call to see where he is, but he doesnt answer. i freak out because i think he got into an accident or something. i start crying again and cant study. i start pacing and i call over and over again and he doesnt pick up his phone. then he calls at 4am and it turns out that he was talking to the ex-girlfriend on the porch for hours and he left the phone in his car. when i get pissed, he tells me that he doesnt understand why im so irritated so now im even more irritated. but he still swears that there is nothing between him and the ex. and i believe him. he finally comes home at 6am. we argue. i still havent studied. i take my finals. during breaks we talk, we cry, he tells me its not about the ex, and it almost feels like we're together again. but i still fail my finals. i come home and i cry. about finals, about us, about everything. we make up. we break up. 'cause he's still in love with the ex. the end.
and the amazing thing is... its not cause of any of my craziness or anything i did. its because he's still in love with his ex-girlfriend. after he swore up and down that he was over her. one day with her and he's head over heels again. *sigh*
i've dated a bunch of people but this is the only time that after the break up, i still want to be with him... and if he doesnt want a relationship, then i want to be friends at least. cause he's that awesome that i still want to have him in my life, even if we're only friends. the funny thing is... even through my crying, i can honestly say that it was still worth it.
blind dates and coffee shops, learning to drive a stick shift, fixing z's laptop, cough drops, skylar's car, ben and jerrys, sales pitches about sun glasses, old school video games, posters that say quiet after taps, and phone calls every night.
i know you wont ever read this, but thanks for the memories <3
mel was bored at 10:54 PM.
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