Me
my name is melissa. i am 27 years old and i'm still not sure what i'm doing with my life.
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Monday, March 31, 2003
only two eventful things today.
1. monica found dale this morning, broken legs and nearly starving to death. i gave her water and milk and she seemed to be doing alright, even having enough energy to drink water on her own. i take a nap (cuz i'm sick and getting worse) and dale dies. .____________.
2. frank tom and yang came over at like.. 10? cuz they were tired of rollerblading i guess. and we ended up arguing and talking until like... 1 and my mom was like "uhh.. do you guys know what time it is..." and yeah i drove them home.
thomas yang, yang xia! *i* thought it was cool. screw the rest of you :P
mel was bored at 1:40 AM.
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Tuesday, March 25, 2003
lets seeee.
march madness: i hella suck at basketball. yesterday i played cuz angie wasnt there and we won cuz mike and frank are hella good. and then today........ jordan kept tipping the ball in over and over and over and over. i liked guarding jolina though cuz i could actually put my hands up and it would actually make an impact :D but yes. we lost by... a lot. but i made a basket! which... didn't do us much good but it made me feel a little less useless... even though we got owned, it was still pretty fun. it made me realize how out of shape i was...
college decisions: i got rejected from wellesley but accepted to grinnell so i guess i'll go do the little fly-in thing for grinnell since its free anyway... but it looks like i'll probably end up going to ucsd. go roosevelt people! tell me if you got into roosevelt because i dont know anyone else that did.
car accident: this asian dad driving a mazda protege hit me as i was driving to school. he hit me right where the back bumper was and claimed it was my fault >.< but yeah... i called my mom and she came and talked to him. and then my dad came on his way from work but then he left after seeing that it was clear that the guy had hit me. then my mom and the guy were arguing sort of so they called the police to decide and the policeman agreed with me so that guy has to fix my car. umm... if its your dad, dont tell me cuz i dont want to know .__.
and thats all thats going on in my life.
mel was bored at 2:34 PM.
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Friday, March 21, 2003
::sigh of relief:: accepted. eleanor roosevelt :]
mel was bored at 2:32 AM.
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Tuesday, March 18, 2003
state quals sucked. i didnt place at all. i honestly think i should have but it doesnt matter. i've lost interest in speech and debate. or maybe i'm just in denial from the last few tournaments where i thought i did well i got no recognition at all.
my mom and i talked for an hour on the car on the way home. actually, she lectured and i cried. to sum it up, i've made all the wrong choices in my life and chosen things other than studying like camp campbell or hanging out with my friends. okay sure, i got two c's in junior year, the most important year. but its not like it would have made a difference if i'd spent less time with friends... i'd just chat or play literati or something anyway. but apparently my lack of hard work and dedication to anything will prevent me from getting into a good schools (stanford and harvard basically) and that means i wont get a good job and i wont get a good salary because i dont work hard and i didnt do well in junior year. never mind that i learned from that year and tried harder as a senior, managing to get only one b (in english ap) with four ap classes and still at least doing my work instead of cutting class every other day. the only thing that matters is that i did not concentrate solely on school junior year and i screwed myself over for life.
mel was bored at 10:47 PM.
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Monday, March 17, 2003
yaaaaayyyyy my friends are hella coooool. just when i'm feeling stupid and depressed because i get rejected from everywhereee they come and they bring french bread and celery and spinach dip and this adorable rabbit cooookie dough and this popcorn chicken stuff and and yogurt raisins and other yummmy fattening stuff. and they stayed and we baked the cookies and i pinched people because i was wearing GREEEEEEEEN and they werent and we talked about dreams and prom and exercising and lotsa stuffffff and yay it was funnnnnn. ohmygoshhh you guys are the greatest :]:]
unfortunately, i also got my ucla letter today. ::kicks ucla:: but thats okay i still had a super good day because my friends are coooool and there's spinach dip left over and i love spinach dip. cool people + spinach dip + yogurt raisins = happy mellie :D
mel was bored at 8:19 PM.
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Saturday, March 15, 2003
i'm sure its a pointless fear but i'm more worried than ever that i wont get accepted anywhere. anywhere but grinnell and davidson that is, because my mom doesnt want me to go there anyway. and no i didnt not apply to davis or irvine because i wouldn't have gone there anyway. i feel hella stupid sometimes... especially since i was the only one of the tree people NOT accepted to ucla. ::sighs::
mel was bored at 6:21 PM.
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Saturday, March 08, 2003
omg look at andrew's away message.
blehness... melissa = nonbleh.
call me a dork but that just totally made my day :]
mel was bored at 10:32 PM.
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Wednesday, March 05, 2003
survey from daphne's blogger that she barely uses anymore
[my name is]: melissa
[in the morning i am]: sleepy
[all i need is]: food
[if i had one wish it would be]: get into ucsd or ucla
[love is]: something i dont feel like thinking about
[if i could see one person right now]: milton? ::shrugs::
[im afraid of]: not getting into any colleges
[i dream about]: i dont dream
have you ever...
[pictured ur crush naked?]: no
[actually seen ur crush naked]: no
[been in love]: i think so
[cried when someone died]: i dont know anyone thats died
[drank alcohol]: yes
which is better?
[coke or pepsi]: coke.
[flowers or candy]: candy usually
[scruff or clean shaven]: clean shaven
[tall or short]: medium?
with the opposite sex..
[what do u notice first?]: smile.
[last person u slow danced with]: charlton. at alex's party .___.
[worst question to ask]: dunno
who?
[makes u laugh the most?]: colin probably
[makes u smile?]: any of the tree ppl
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them]: jason :\
[has a crush on u?]: no one
[can make u feel better no matter what]: tree
[easier to talk to: boys or girls?]: boys
do you...
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to i.m u?]: nope
[save aol/aim conversations]: sometimes
[save e-mails]: sometimes
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex]: occasionally
have you...
[cried because of someone saying something to u]: yes
[fallen for ur best friend]: yes
[been rejected]: yes. ::glares at ***:: you know who you are :P
[rejected someone]: dont think so
[used someone]: dont think so
[been cheated on]: i dont believe so
[done something u regret]: who hasnt?
last person...
[u talked to]: In person = my mom
[u hugged]: morgan
[u instant messaged]: jason
[u laughed with]: tracy
have you/do you/are you...
[color ur hair]: ppl dye it when they're bored :p
[ever get off the damn computer]: not usually
[habla espanol]: un poquito
[smoke]: no.
[obsessive]: sortof
[could u live without the computer?]: no
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?]: 200
[whats ur favorite food?]: anything yummy
[are those considered foods??]: yes
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: i like banana gelato. does that count?
[drink alcohol?]: not usually
[like watching sunrises or sunsets]: sometimes
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emotional
[trust others way too easily?]: sometimes
[i want]: to get accepted to ucla or ucsd
[i wish]: i hadn't taken english ap
[i love]: food
[i miss]: being in shape
[i fear]: not getting accepted anywhere i really want to go
[i hear]: 112
[i wonder]: if i'll get accepted anywhere other than grinnell or davidson
[how do u kno its love?]: when you know their faults and still want to be with them
mel was bored at 11:14 PM.
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doing that survey in leo's lj cuz i'm bored and i have no life.
Starting time: 3:27pm
Your Name: melissa
Nicknames: mel
Birthday: september 20, 1985
School: lhs
Eyes: brown
Height: 5'3"ish
Pets: dale :)
Do you have a crush: no
When you first meet some one you notice?: smile
Gone out in public in your pajamas: lots
Missed school b/c it was raining: i wish
Kept a secret from everyone: yes
Had an imaginary friend: yea. name was fred :)
Wanted to hook up with a friend: yeah
Cried during a Flick: john q, life is beautiful.. a few others..
Had a crush on a teacher: ew no
Ever thought an animated character was good looking: good looking for an animated character i guess..?
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: i don't watch tv
Been on stage: yeah
----------------FAVORITES------------------
Shampoo: garnier fructis
Toothpaste: anything minty
Type of soup: chicken noodle
Type of sandwich: a yummy one
Soap: juniper breeze liquid soap from bath and body works
Colors: yellow orange and baby blue
Day/Night: night
Summer/Winter/Spring/Fall: summer. sun, beaches, and no school
Cartoon Character: quincy from foxtrot :)
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: nope
Who have you known the longest of your friends: sam
Who's the loudest: tracy
Who's the shyest: tree
Who you go to for advice: whoever i think would be most knowledgable about it
------------IN THE LAST 24 HOURS------------
Cried: nope
Cut your hair: nope
Worn a skirt: yep. today :p
Been mean: not that i know of...
Met someone new: nope
Missed someone: sorta
Hugged someone: yep
Wished upon a star: nope
Laughed until you cried: nope
Played Truth or Dare: nope
Spent quality time alone: yep
Read a book for fun: yep.
Ate a meal: of course
Are you happy: i'd he happier if i got my uc decisions and got accepted to la and sd
Are you wearing your pajamas: nope
Are you talking to someone online: yea
Laughed: yes
Bought something: i dont believe so
Worn a tie? nope.
Been kissed?: nope
Written a real letter?: nope
Written on paper?: yes
Taken a test?: yes
Written in a journal?: i'm kind of doing that right now
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN-------
God/Devil: i dont know
Love: maybe
The Closet Monster: nope
The Big Bang Theory: sure why not
Superstitions: sort of... i believe that if you talk about something good you jinx it :p
-------------EITHER OR:-------------
coffee or cocoa? both
hot or cold?: depends on what
ONE PILLOW OR TWO?one. or none.
red or blue? blue
Jeans or cords? jeans
Sweater or sweatshirt? sweater usually, sweatshirt when i'm feeling bummish
Pencil or pen? pencil
shirt or tank top? depends
stripes or solids? solid, unless its yellow and orange stripes :D
wool or cotton? cotton
Rose or Lily? either as long as they're yellow and orange
chocolate milk or plain? plain with cereal, chocolate otherwise
spring or fall? spring
history or science? history
Do you have friends? yeah
Who do you hang out with the most? tree people
Who do you email the most? people in youth commission
Whose parents do you know the best? my own
Who do you go to to talk about guys? i dont talk about guys that much. tree or monica i guess.
Who knows all of your secrets? jason.
Whos parents are the best? mine are usually alright
Eat peanuts? only the honey roasted kind
Have a goldfish? used to. it ate all my mom's guppies.
Eat with your mouth open? only to annoy people
Take walks in the rain? lots
Do you ever have those falling dreams? not lately
How did you spend the past summer? catching up on sleep. also went to cancun.
When was the last time you showered? 9:55 this morning
What color pants do you have on right now? i dont have pants on. i'm wearing a denim SKIRT though.
What song are u listening to right now? lots of 112 songs
What was the last thing that you said online? bleeeeeee
What is right next to you? a cup of apple juice
What are the last 4 digits in your phone number? 8868
What was the last thing that you ate? noodles
Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? cancun
Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? i'll figure that out in 10 years
Do you have a lava lamp? yes
How many buddies do you have on your list? 200
What's the nicest thing that you find about the opposite sex? how they hold you and make you feel warm and safe and protected
How are you today? worried. i want uc decisions. i also want my portrait questions to miraculously answer themselves.
How do you eat an Oreo? i twist it and eat the plain side first.
Who/What makes you happy? music i like. good grades. college acceptance letters.
Have you ever won any special awards? speech and debate and youth commission mostly. national merit commended student too...
What do you want to be when you grow up? something interesting. diplomat or politician, then editor.
What are your future goals? go to college
Fave M&M? peanut, or none at all
Favorite Food? anything yummy
Favorite movies? john q, shawshank redemption, the rock
Fave day of this year: hmm. i dont know.
Fave guys cologne? emporio armani. yay jason ;p
Fave name brand? polo
Do you like to dance? i like pretending i know how to
Are you too shy to ask someone out? yes
If you could change your name, what would it be? i like my name
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? piyopiyo
What is the stupidest thing that you have ever done? too many to count
What will your first son's name be? sean! its my favorite boys name.
First daughter? donno
Favorite drink? sprite
Do you like scary or happy movies better? happy
Lust or Love? lust when you're young. love when you get married.
Ending time: 3:45
mel was bored at 3:46 PM.
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Monday, March 03, 2003
i had a pretty busy weekend...
mike's party was horribly planned and the whole "surprise" aspect was eliminated when mike saw everyone else's cars. after dinner at mike's house i did pushups and situps and now i'm hella sore. my abs are seriously going to kill me. it hurts to get out of bed, to sneeze, and even to laugh. we also played this slapping game and there's like.. popped blood vessels on my hand. actually they're just ugly purple blotches now :\
morgan's party was kind of awkward because i didn't really know anyone there except for like.. the tree guys.. and they were all too busy playing games or flirting with girls or something. the rest of the girls were all juniors so i kind of sat there and watched everyone laughing and having a good time and wondered what i was doing with my life.
don't you ever have those moods when you feel like life is pointless and a complete total utter mess? i seriously feel like i aimed too high for my colleges and that i won't get accepted into anywhere but grinnell and davidson, neither of which my mom wants me to attend. i should have applied to davis and irvine cuz the chances of me getting into berkeley, la, or sd all seem quite slim.
and then there's some other issues that i'm worried about that i wish i could talk about but no one would understand.
i love how i make myself depressed so easily. i want to take a hot bath and crawl into bed and wallow in self pity, but no, i still have english homework. ::sighs::
mel was bored at 1:10 AM.
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